Today's
Meditation:
This is something that few of us want to
acknowledge. We are vulnerable, and we can be
hurt. We can be damaged, and we can lose whatever we
have at a moment's notice-- just ask anyone who's gone
through a tornado or hurricane or earthquake. Just
ask anyone who has been left by a spouse, betrayed by a
trusted friend, abandoned by parents. We are
vulnerable, and it's our acknowledgement of that
vulnerability that allows us to put an edge on our lives,
to see the importance of deciding which chances are truly
worth taking in life.
When I was a kid, I thought that all adults had it all
together. Now I'm astonished to realize just how
messed up my parents were emotionally, just how much pain
they were going through and causing each other (and us
kids). As
an adult myself now, I make sure that I don't allow
myself to be subject to the causes of the pain that they
went through. I recognize that I'm very vulnerable
myself, and there are certain types of pain that I don't
want to expose myself to, for they're much more likely to
be extremely damaging than other types of pain.
I completely accept my vulnerability-- if I didn't, I would
have no way of protecting myself. If I considered
myself invulnerable or impervious to pain and injury, then
I would make no effort to avoid it. Of course, I
can't spend my life avoiding all pain, but there is a way
to balance taking my risks with taking care of myself.
I like my vulnerability. It's like a friend who
keeps reminding me to be careful, even as I take risks and
do things that others may not be willing to do. And
without our vulnerability, we wouldn't be able to feel the
world, the emotions, the ecstasy and the agony and the joy
and the pain-- and these are the things that bring life to
our existence. These are the things that let us know
that we are truly and fully alive.
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